Christmas Plans


Remembering Heartbreak

(Written 22.10.2015)

There’s this Moment when it hits you, hits you hard: You might not ever see this person again.
And you can’t wrap your head around it. How can they not be in your life?
And then your heart breaks and it breaks and breaks again, every fucking time you remember.
You already know there will come a time when you can live with this.
You call yourself crazy and foolish, because you fear that time almost as much as you fear the pain.
Since you know you won’t be the person you wanted to become with them.
You wish you knew, if at least they were fine with this.
They are not.
And right now that is all you know.
If only you could quit your head and be out there, where the world still makes sense.